I speak openly about my experiences with this darkness because on the surface, I appeared to be functioning in a "normal" capacity. Even the bits of acting a bit more removed or sad were considered acceptable by our culture, but underneath a storm was raging. This storm disconnected and isolated me to the point where I literally could not feel love--even the love inherent in our beautiful earth. I think that's what I want people to hear most. The person suffering is using all of their resources to withstand the turmoil of sadness and loneliness that escape and running away becomes the only known peace. I speak from my own experiences swimming in that water, and withstanding the wind and hail.
A summary of what I learned from, was fascinated by, and what I was feeling.
Have you had a wild "ah-ha" moment, where everything feels like you are looking at the world differently? Perhaps your norm feels unfamiliar. Usually these phantom feelings mean you are waking up, and it happens when you are raising your frequency and vibration. When we do our own soul searching or in more colloquial terms, personal development, we are reconstructing new shifts in how we perceive the world around us. You are looking at the world differently because you are evolving. If you are seeking change, you'll probably experience this feeling--and it's OK!
This video hit me right in the kisser. I felt this way when I started my own business. Actually, when I was still just thinking about starting it. My world started feeling new and different. It can be overwhelming, but the purpose is to help guide you towards the Divinely supported opportunities in front of you, and to reconnect you to what brings you joy and fulfills your soul and spirit.
Here are some of my key takeaways from the video below.
✨Look at where you are afraid to put boundaries or say no.
✨Investigate where you feel most authentic and do those things instead.
✨Don't make yourself small or preoccupy yourself with how others may respond.
We are all on our own journeys and you're allowed to be compassionately genuine to yourself before all others.
I believe in the decisions you make to support yourself on this roller coaster. If your intentions are coming from a loving and pure place, you are supported by the Universe to make good things happen.